susanrenee

lots of life changes. a career change, another move, who knows what else.


i'm burning bridges these days and it's never felt so good.

livejournal is over. i may do a personal blog on the naked face website (that will hopefully be up by the end of the week - jon is done with his paying gigs and can start on this)

if you want to talk chances are you have to call me. and then it's only a 50/50 chance whether i'll answer.

peace out

i'm pretty sure i should get free buffalo rock for life for this! ha.

if you are thinking about coming up for my birthday bash i unfortunately need a definite answer one way or another in the next week. i am sending out invites and there is a capacity on the boat. my apartment is also filling up for that weekend.

thanks
R

it's a little premature - however, one of the other regulars at CG and I have made a bet for the college football season. he's a GA bulldog fan. he bet me tonight that they will have a better sec record than auburn this year. the loser has to wear the other teams shirt and hat and take the other out for a night of drinking. one of our bartenders is a gator fan - so many sec fans in our tiny boston bar.


went to fenway last night and watched the sox lose to detroit. at least we're winning tonight. jd drew is my favorite player because i feel bad for him that so many people didn't like him last year.

a little drunk with the little ones right now. so good.

birmingham folks! help emily and kevin move on saturday - you know they'd help you if you asked.

"people say friends don't destroy one another - what do they know about friends"

i'm beginning to like living here. it's funny that it took warm weather being around the corner to make that happen. the thing that sucks is that some of the people here make me want to kill. i've never been such an angry person. fuck a bunch of douchebags!

anyway - my 30th bday bash is going to be pretty fucking killer. the recognition, joe m, king everything ??, maybe one more. on a boat during sunset on the boston harbor. fuck yes! oh and william, em, and kev will be here too.

Something about listening to John Fogerty made everything okay.



Probably booking a flight for a weekend in Phoenix/LA for later this month today. I tend to make great decisions when I'm drinking and talking to friends.

i'm jealous of all of you that saw the weakerthans last night. someone called me and i'm thankful for it - but i had not idea who it was ha. i just bought daiser and i tix for their north hampton, ma show.... pretty freakin' stoked that i FINALLY get to drink white russians and/or whiskey with daiser and swoon!!!

pretty frustrated about several things right now - yet i'm in a suprisingly good mood.

i'm having a "come to jesus" talk with the little ones today.


who knows which way it will go.

sofia and i are going on a roadtrip! we're driving down to chesterfield, md to see jena berlin (at what could be one of their last shows) and young livers. this makes up for me not getting to go to brooklyn!

so we made a cd:

screem aim fire - bullet for my valentine
sunshine in a shot glass - 500 miles to memphis
i'll just fall - lucero
massive nights - the hold steady
say i won't (recognize) - gaslight anthem
fireman's bakesale - the carrie nations
plumb line - archers of loaf
the origamists - lemuria
baby, i'm an anarchist! - against me!
a plain morning - dashboard confessional
done and done - look mexico
hopping fences - kiwi
avoiding catatonic surrender - tim barry
it's still rock and roll to me - billy joel

fuck yes.

and ps: joshua matthews and adam carver called me tonight. it was amazing.

quotes from our night out at common ground last night:

"i don't believe musicians should be virgins." - kelly
in regards to the jonas brothers playing in boston last night and fucking up traffic

"drink some gatorade and go home!" - kelly

"well, if you're not sure what it is: kill it and then eat it" - these two old guys talking outside of the bar while smoking

"the day i get that drunk that fast is the day i stop drinking" - renee
in reference to our good friend karens behavior on st. pattys day

"i always walk with my hands in my pockets with my dick between my fingers" - joe
three of us ladies were talking about how we keep our hands in our coat pockets while walking home - one with a cell phone ready to dial and one with our keys between our fingers. joe had that gem to say. ha.

"they spent an hour debating whether or not 'rocky' from 'rocky & bullwinkle" was a republican" - jay
talking about the two older men who were debating at the end of the bar

"you can talk AND WALK" - kelly

"alcoholics go to AA. i'm just a drunk" - eddie

"you're like a virgin again! you can't play music!" - kelly to renee

" i do NOT want to see THAT naked" - renee to kelly re: the guy everyone thinks we have a crush on

"hey! kelly has VD!" - jay
he thought this is what i said when i said "hey! kelly needs a beer!"


we also discussed our top 5 favorite shows:

KELLY:
Gomez
Morrissey
Skatallites/Virgin Festival
Pulp
Suede London 96

RENEE:
PMFS/CITY OF CATERPILLAR under the bridge
Billy Joel
The Weakerthans in Nashville
Hank Williams Jr.
Carole King

JAY:
Metallica @ Fillmore 5.03
Pantera 6.01
Godsmack 5.02
Korn 9.98
Page & Plant 7.96

it's obvious that i have better musical taste than most of my friends hahaha JOKES!

certain songs - the hold steady
sunday pints - jericho
it's a shame about ray - the lemonheads
web in front - archers of loaf
blue jeans & white t-shirts - gaslight anthem
avoiding catatonic surrender - tim barry
the best ever death metal band in denton - the mountain goats
done and done - look mexico
i saved latin- the ackleys
little bohemia - smoke or fire
i coul'da been a contender - gaslight anthem
up around the bend - ccr

this was my bff cd i made for a new friend. i'm not great at making mixes - but they're kind of fun.

i live in the land of the irish.

the irish like whiskey and shots.

i'm fucked.

goonight st. patrick - it's been a good few days with you. see you next year.

goodnight.

























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so i'm not sure if this was a spider bite or not. i'm convinced there's a parasite of some sort living just on the left side of my body trying to escape through my left hand/hip/side of my face. see i have these things that resemble bites or scratches and they itch like crazy. but i've talked to several "professionals" and they insist they aren't bites. there was a scare that it could be "bed bugs" which thrive here in allston - but if that were the case i'd have these things all over and not just in small areas.

of course, the more i think about them the more they itch. it could just all be psychological. oh well. hopefully my hand/hip/side of my face don't fall off anytime soon.

i'm kind of tired of all the st. patrick day celebrating. i will be going to cg tonight for one last hoorah for the irish. then i can't spend any more money ever.

it's 30 but "feels like 18". i'm sick of the cold. give me a hot summer day with a porch flip flops and cut off jean shorts and mason jars full of mimosas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate spiders. i have a spider bite. on my left pointer finger knuckle. it's kind of gross but they said i'd live.

apparently in boston it's okay to celebrate st. patricks day over a three day weekend. god bless the irish.



i'm in love with the hold steady.

slipped on day 7. but that's okay. it wasn't too outrageous.

there is a band called 'the little ones'. they're in AP as one of the top 100 bands to look for in 2008 (including the gaslight anthem, fake problems and bridge & tunnel). we want them to come stay at our apt. it would be kind of appropriate.

about to buy tickets to game 2 of the 2008 red sox season. STOKED.

day six.

some days it's really hard to make myself actually get out of bed. today was one of those days and unfortunately i didn't win. i'm scared of my future. i've fallen out of love with my career choice and this makes me a bit sad. i know it's because of where i am right now in my personal life that's causing this. but part of the reason i moved away was because i was tired of just talking about how i wanted something different out of life. maybe i need to apply the same to what i want to do with the rest of my life. we'll see what happens in the next six months. that may be all i have left in me with this career - unless something in my direct upper management changes.

in other news i believe i found a "date" to carnegie hall. an acquaintance from RVA that i met at my first fest actually - paige - lives in ny now and she and i are going to get all dressed up to go hear mr. jason gruber sing. i'm pretty ecstatic over this.

tonight was trivia with karen and patrick then we went to meet up with joe and jess who are by far my favorite couple ever! tomorrow night is american idol night 1 this week... it's the top 12 yo. i mean - this is when things "get serious".

march 18: possible trip to philly to see jon loudon, jeff meyers and company.
march 20: brooklyn to see MICHAEL CARTER!!!!! and other friends!!!!!!
april 8: opening day of baseball season. yes, i am taking the day off from work and drinking with friends at the bar. i'm 'one of them' now *i even have a fucking tshirt to prove it ha.
april 12- 13: daiser coming to the northeast! possibly going to see the weakerthans too.
may 2: pittsburgh trip with the little ones for gaslight anthem, bouncing souls, tim barry.
may 6-9: emily eddings in boston. YES.
may 11: jason gruber singing at carnegie hall in ny.
june 12 - 15???: william in boston + red sox game & bday booze cruise

sometime in april i'm going to new brunswick, nj for a girls weekend with hollie fallon and ashling. and in late may it's out to the west coast to visit april vena cava and floyd.


the spring/summer is shaping up to be much better than the winter time.







oh and as i was hanging out with friends at CG tonight some guy sauntered up to me and said "excuse me, i couldn't help but stare at your chest... is one reason a band or is it just there to bring attention to you? bc it definitely worked." then he winked... he thought this was a pick up line.... he was denied. ha.

days three - five.

i've been rereading the harry potter series. it helps keep my mind off the fact that i'm still sick and can't be outside. it's gorgeous here today - though very windy and cold. i still can't hear out of my right ear but my throat is normal again.

i've given up on _______. it's supposed to be a balance of two - one person can't care enough for both.

day two.



there's a lot i'm not telling you. and there's a not that you're not saying. though our silence makes it pretty clear that we're nothing more than fleeting memories to one another these days. does it make you as sad as it makes me? you'd think we'd try to remedy this - but we're both just a bit too self righteous for that aren't we?

please refrain from only drunken phone calls/texts. these days i'm looking for real conversations only. don't worry. i'll do the same.


*edit: in all honesty, this conversation is not directed at just one person - at the same time it's not directed to any persons in particular. i guess you could just say that i am currently dissatisfied with most of my current relationships.